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Goodbye 2017, Welcome 2018!

2017 has been a tough year for me. Not only in my career or relationship but also in my family, because we have lost our dear father/husband. Everytime a day goes by, I feel like "thank God I can pass today without being dramatic!!" Only God knows how much I've cried this year.

Entering 2018, I have mixed feelings. I have to be honest with you.. I am excited but I also feel a lil bit anxious. For some people, I am the most optimistic person, but honestly, I'm worried about how I AM going to behave or act in 2018.

Most days of 2017 were filled with tears, fears, worries, doubts and of course when I left 2016, I didn't expect 2017 to be that way.. that made me feel like I shouldn't have waited until 2017 ends to decide to make a change.

To be honest, I never thought that I would lose my father at the age of 22.. I never thought that I couldn't graduate last year just because there was one compulsory class that was not open last year so I just graduated this…

Expect the great things!

“Ah tomorrow’s gonna be another long tiring day..”
“This is gonna get harder..”
Sounds familiar? I don’t know about you, but sometimes I can get so stressed out about tomorrow.. I worry about tomorrow too much that I can’t enjoy today. It’s so easy for me to think about how things won’t change in the future and it’s gonna be hard.

            Those who know me from the outside might think that I’m so positive and optimistic about life. But, honestly, so many times I feel afraid of the future.. Until yesterday, I was thinking about the future and I just realized that I was so negative! I was filled with so many fears, worries and doubts. Then I asked myself, “If I could imagine the bad things that can happen, why don’t I just imagine the good things?”. In life, there will be challenges and hardships but don't have low expectations in life just because we live in this fallen world. I don't want to spend my time worrying about the future. Instead, from now on, I will always exp…

Long Distance Relationship

Long Distance Relationship
Many people say that long distance relationships stink.. It is true but there are also benefits of having a long distance relationship. Today I want to encourage those who are in a long distance relationship that it doesn’t always have to stink. There are things that also good in a long distance relationship: -You will not take that person for granted. You will value each moment that you spend together. I remember when Austin was here for 2 weeks, everyday felt so special. Even casual things such as having lunch together, doing my work, going to church felt so special. (Writing this makes me miss him so much..) -It helps you to keep your purity. I don’t know about you, but it is a struggle to almost every couple to remain pure while they’re dating. When I say pure, it’s not only “not having sex before marriage”, but it’s also anything close to that (Fondling, Caressing, etc). I always view long distance relationships as a blessing in disguise (It is really a…

Set-Apart Woman (True Purity)

"True Purity is so much more than a Christian rule to endure. True purity is so much more than the noble decision to wait for a future spouse. True purity is complete set-apartness for our heavenly Prince. True purity comes only when we fall into the loving arms of our Jesus Christ, surrender ourselves fully to Him, and allow Him to tenderly shape us into His likeness." -Leslie Ludy from Authentic Beauty.


I can't agree more with Leslie on this definition of true purity. "Purity" is not the most favorite topic for young people. As a matter of fact, the topic of purity sounds too serious and boring for them. It makes sense. In this modern era, having purity is something that is not common. People will think that there's something wrong with you that causes you to keep your purity. When I first told someone that I had never kissed anybody, she was like "What? Why?" she didn't get it because nowadays, when you're dating someone, kissing is jus…

Enough is enough.

These past few weeks the devil has attacked my mind in the area of self-image.. I just feel like I don't look good enough, I'm not beautiful, I'm not attractive and so on.. I realize that I have to make a bold decision. I have to unfollow "fashion bloggers" on my Instagram that have been a big influence in my life.. I know it's hard to not be wanting to look good in this era. Everything around us just bombards us with the message of "buy this product, it will make your skin glow. Drink this vitamin, it will make you look younger" and the list goes on.. I am powerless to stop that ads. I know we're just gonna be fed with those kinds of thing everyday.. The choice is on us. Do we wanna buy those lies or not? I'm not saying that all beauty companies are liars.. some products do really work! But, do we want to be defined by them? Until when are we gonna be satisfied? The truth is, we're never gonna be satisfied unless we find our identity in…

Inner Beauty vs Outer Beauty

There are so many technologies for beauty nowadays. Eyelashes extension, face-lift, eyebrows tattoo, skin-whitening, body-fat removal. The list goes on and on.. Women nowadays are striving to achieve perfection. Don't get me wrong, I love looking beautiful. I love beautiful things.But, too many times we work hard to look beautiful on the outside and we forget to take care of our inner beauty.


When was the last time we got jealous of someone? When was the last time we hurt someone with our words? When was the last time we thought of negative thoughts towards someone? When was the last time we desired earthly things/earthly romance? I asked those questions to myself as well.. We can't let our heart wander around by itself. We can't expect to have a clean heart without cleaning our heart each day. It's like we're expecting to have clean skin/face but we never wash them.I've been disciplining myself to take care of my heart more than anything else. Don't wash yo…

Be Patient

Patience is not really my strength. I can remember how many times in my life I got so stressed out because God had told me to wait and be patient. Whether it's about career or relationship or even ministry, being patient is not really my strongest characteristic.. As I'm writing this blog, I am sitting down in a hotel in Bali where many couples holding hands, snuggling, or even more (I don't really have to go into details). It's not easy to be patient while waiting for my time to come. I've shared in my previous blogs that I've always desired marriage. I desire to be married. I am preparing myself to be married one day. But, one thing that we forget about marriage. We need a lot of patience in marriage. I have seen many couples who got involved into arguments just because they lacked of patience. We need patience in every area of our lives. It's not easy, especially when we look at other people's lives and we see them getting what they want in a split …

Submit under God's/My Parent's Authority?

Everyone knows how my parents were so overprotective over me. I know, as the youngest child (Note to you: I am 12 years younger than my 3rd sister and 15 years younger than my eldest sister. I have 3 older sisters and one older brother so that makes me the little baby), my family can be very protective over me and cautious about my life decisions. I remember one moment where I felt like I would never be able to leave my house just because my parents were so protective over me. Since my dad passed away, my mom has actually become more protective over me. Often times, I lost hope that one day God could use me and send me to many nations.. knowing that my family wants me to always be around them. But then one thing hit me pretty hard "God is bigger than anything". God is bigger than my fear, my worries, my desires, my dreams, my problems even my family. He can do anything. I know that God must have put me in my family for a reason. This is my training ground. I don't know a…

Find Your Calling!

I’m sitting at Starbucks coffee right now and as random as it might be, I just get reminded of what my friend said about deciding on who you want to marry (such a big topic! Ha). Suddenly, while sitting on the corner of this coffee shop, I am thinking of my “calling”. I remember my friend once said “Another huge thing when deciding on who you want to be with is knowing who you are, how God has designed you and CALLED you to do”. It doesn’t mean that we have to know every detail of our lives but we have to know the things that we love and want to prioritize. Because you want someone that can support you and do life with.
I don’t know if I have written about this on my previous blog or not. Well, I think I did (check out http://yemima-hutapea.blogspot.co.id/2012/11/introduction-to-my-world-of-fashion-and.html) I love talking about fashion, beauty and style but above those things, I love talking about identity! Many girls out there are struggling to find their identity in this world. Yo…

Surrender

I've met so many ladies in my life, who came to me after a church service and then asked me to pray for their future husbands. Please don't get me wrong, I really LOVE praying for ladies and especially praying for a Godly husband. Marriage is something that (almost) all girls have ever dreamt of. Since we were little, we imagined how our wedding would be like, how our husband would treat us and how beautiful our marriage will be. Well, at least, I did that :p Marriage is something that most women desire and ask from God. But, there's one thing that really bothers my mind. Sometimes, we desire marriage more than JESUS, Himself. Listen to me carefully, I really love everything about marriage. I love the purpose and the meaning of marriage (Read: Ephesians 5). I love talking about marriage. However, my prayer and desire is that we would pursue Jesus more than anything else. I'm not that kind of extremist who is against girls that like to talk about marriage and like to as…

Be Careful!

Well, the title might sound scary but this is what I want to share with you all...

I think we must be (really) careful with what we watch, what we see, what we hear and even what we  read. Lately I feel that the songs that are playing on the radio emphasize on sex, (earthly) love and things like that. I'm not saying that we should turn off ourselves from the outside world. It's impossible to do that. But, I'm trying to say BE CAREFUL. We must be intentional with what we watch and listen to. The other day I had the intention to watch The Big Bang Theory because I needed some good laughs. But apparently, there was a scene that led to sexual things. It caught me off my guard! I am writing this to you because I know that having a clean and holy thought is not something that happens to us naturally. Sometimes we must CHOOSE the things that we want to think of. This is impossible to do by ourselves. We need God's grace to do this. I can tell you that there are so many people…

Lie VS Truth

Hey people! I just really feel like sharing this with you all. So many times we believe in the lies that the devil whispers into our ears. If you read my previous blogs, you will discover that my heart is truly for all the girls out there who are struggling for acceptance. With that being said, these following sentences that I'm going to write would be more related to the girls (but boys, you are welcomed here!)

The Lie: I am not pretty/she's prettier than me.
The Truth: You are pretty in your own way! Quit comparing yourself with others. For you are fearfully & wonderfully made, His works are wonderful and you are one of His works! (Psalm 139:14)

The Lie: I am an accident.
The Truth: You are NOT an accident! God has a PURPOSE for you! Before He formed you in your mother's womb, He knew the plans for you. Before you were born, you were set apart. (Jeremiah 1:5)

The Lie: I have no future.
The Truth: You have a FUTURE! In fact, God says "For I know the plans I have …