Everyone knows how my parents were so overprotective over me. I know, as the youngest child (Note to you: I am 12 years younger than my 3rd sister and 15 years younger than my eldest sister. I have 3 older sisters and one older brother so that makes me the little baby), my family can be very protective over me and cautious about my life decisions. I remember one moment where I felt like I would never be able to leave my house just because my parents were so protective over me. Since my dad passed away, my mom has actually become more protective over me. Often times, I lost hope that one day God could use me and send me to many nations.. knowing that my family wants me to always be around them. But then one thing hit me pretty hard "God is bigger than anything". God is bigger than my fear, my worries, my desires, my dreams, my problems even my family. He can do anything. I know that God must have put me in my family for a reason. This is my training ground. I don't know about you, but for me, there are times when I wonder if God's purposes will be done in my life and that's when I need to remind myself Romans 8:28 "For we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose". Underline "according to His purpose". If you believe that something is really what God has called you to do then you don't have to be afraid of the result. As I said, God is bigger than your situations, He is bigger than your circumstances. I don't know who I'm writing this for.. but I just feel that someone out there needs to hear this "God will open a way when it seems there is no way". Sometimes it seems there is no way for me to leave my family or my mom for missions/ministries overseas. Sometimes I feel like I should give up on my calling. But, one thing I know: God will make a way when it seems there is no way.. Just submit under His authority, trust in His promises. He is working even when it seems like He is not.
Thursday, June 15, 2017
Thursday, June 8, 2017
I’m sitting at Starbucks coffee right now and as random as it might be, I just get reminded of what my friend said about deciding on who you want to marry (such a big topic! Ha). Suddenly, while sitting on the corner of this coffee shop, I am thinking of my “calling”. I remember my friend once said “Another huge thing when deciding on who you want to be with is knowing who you are, how God has designed you and CALLED you to do”. It doesn’t mean that we have to know every detail of our lives but we have to know the things that we love and want to prioritize. Because you want someone that can support you and do life with.
I don’t know if I have written about this on my previous blog or not. Well, I think I did (check out http://yemima-hutapea.blogspot.co.id/2012/11/introduction-to-my-world-of-fashion-and.html) I love talking about fashion, beauty and style but above those things, I love talking about identity! Many girls out there are struggling to find their identity in this world. You can’t find your identity in this world; you can only find your identity in
Christ because He’s the One who
created you! Just like a baby who is born to the world and doesn’t know who he/she
is until their parents give a name to him/her, we have to find our identity
from our Father in heaven.
I know that I am called to talk about this stuff. Therefore, I know with all my heart that I have to find someone who agrees with the things that I talk about. Someone who also found their identity in
and is willing to encourage me to keep talking about it.
When people get involved in a relationship without knowing each of their callings, it might cause a trouble in the future. It’s as simple as this: You can’t be with someone that does not support your calling, but, you can’t find someone who does support your calling if you don’t even know what your calling is. Hopefully you get my point here. Pray and ask God about it.
I will end this post with a devotional reading that I got from “Know Your Why: Finding & Fulfilling Your Calling” devotional by
: John Piper
“Finding our passions—answering the question “what do you want?"—is crucial to finding our callings. Rarely is that question easily answered. For most, determining what we truly want is a profound psychological process: a journey of discovery that takes time to travel and that can lead us in different directions at different points in our lives.
So it was for the disciples (read
1:38-39). They didn’t know what they wanted—only that they were searching for
something. When Jesus asked them, ‘What
do you want?’ they didn’t know how to answer. Instead they sidestepped it with a
question of their own: “Where are you staying?”( John
The inference from the disciples’ question is clear: We don’t know the answer to your question. We’re not sure what we’re seeking. We don’t know where we’re going. But we do know that we want to spend time with you, to abide with you, to learn more about you. Because if You truly are who
John says You are (Son of God), then maybe you will
be able to show us what we truly are seeking/called to do (I added it).
Search for Him then, you will find Him then, you will find your calling. (then maybe, just maybe you will find the man who supports your calling too ;) )
Enjoy your journey with God! <3
Sunday, May 28, 2017
I've met so many ladies in my life, who came to me after a church service and then asked me to pray for their future husbands. Please don't get me wrong, I really LOVE praying for ladies and especially praying for a Godly husband. Marriage is something that (almost) all girls have ever dreamt of. Since we were little, we imagined how our wedding would be like, how our husband would treat us and how beautiful our marriage will be. Well, at least, I did that :p Marriage is something that most women desire and ask from God. But, there's one thing that really bothers my mind. Sometimes, we desire marriage more than JESUS, Himself. Listen to me carefully, I really love everything about marriage. I love the purpose and the meaning of marriage (Read: Ephesians 5). I love talking about marriage. However, my prayer and desire is that we would pursue Jesus more than anything else. I'm not that kind of extremist who is against girls that like to talk about marriage and like to ask people to pray for them to be married. Haha no! Sure, it's okay to talk about marriage and how you really want it. However, I guess, when we talk about marriage more than we talk about Jesus, there's something wrong about us. We should desire Jesus more than anything. Jesus should be the biggest desire in our hearts. Jesus should be more than enough. There's a sentence that I always say to people "If we don't feel content with only Jesus, we won't feel content with anything else". The point is, do not desire marriage just because you feel that your life will truly be complete when you're finally married to somebody. I feel like writing this because to be honest, sometimes I can be like that. I can talk about marriage more than the CREATOR and the FOUNDER of marriage itself, which is God. And, I can also be reading books about marriages more than The Book about Him (Read: the bible). Girls, God loves to write romantic stories for us.. but, until we give the pen to Him, we're just gonna be holding on to our own 'dreams' & 'imaginations'. He wants us to make Him the center of our dreams & imaginations and He wants us to be content with His love. These past few days, I've been re-focusing my mind to God. Is He really enough? Or you need Him + somebody else? Girls, God will bring you the right one in the right time. Believe in Him. Believe in His timing. Stop worrying and do not fear. Most importantly, seek Him more than anything else. God is not a stand-in. Let Jesus be the center of our lives in every moment. For when we have Jesus, we have all that we need.
Thursday, May 18, 2017
I really feel the need to share this with you all, especially young girls.. (I always start my blog by saying that I need to share this, because I only write what I feel like I “need” to share, not only what I “want” to share..)
In this era, where boyfriend/girlfriend relationship has become something that is very common, I feel like the essence of finding the right one from God has lost its importance for some people. As long as you like the guy, that’s enough. It really saddens my heart.. We can’t build a relationship just based on feelings. I am not here to judge, once again, I am here to help.
I have met so many couples along my journey. Some of them are Godly couples, some of them are just “Christian” couples. I write this with a heavy heart, but couples who started off with only feelings, ended up with a really bad damage. Some Christian couples who I know dearly, ended up having sex before marriage and getting pregnant. I know that God can turn our mistakes into miracles. But, God never desires us to make mistakes intentionally.. It hurts Him and causes Him a great sorrow when we do that.
Feelings is deceitful. That is why, it is hard for us to listen to The Lord when we are driven by our feelings. I’m not saying that God will point out to you the one person that you’re gonna marry (this happens to some people though!) What I’m trying to say is, God will you give you guidance and wisdom on who to marry (the characteristics/the qualities), when to start a relationship and how to build a God-written love story. We do this not only because we want to have a wonderful relationship. But, we do this because we love The Lord.
Even relationships that initiated by God can be damaged if we let our feelings take control along the way.. The decision to guard our heart and mind is the decision that we have to make and ask God for help by each day. I’ve been in a relationship, a God-initiated relationship, because if it wasn’t God, that relationship won’t even be possible to happen. However, there’s a “but” here.. But, I let my feelings get in the way. Thank God! Only by His grace, we didn’t commit into any sexual sins & we had never even kissed. But, it caused a damage to my heart (although it's not his fault! he's a wonderful man of God). When my partner at that time felt that God called him to go to another place and we should call off our relationship, I found myself trembling down. I cried for days/months. I know break-ups are always hard. But I also do believe that when it happens, it doesn’t have to be that bad. Especially, when we put Jesus at the center of our relationships.
I’m sharing all of this so that you know that I know how it feels.. Relationships should not always end up badly. Even, if they don’t work out.
I’ve met some couples who didn’t end up with each other but still remain friends because they were not driven by their feelings when they were still in a relationship. I believe that this is God’s desire for us.. He wants to be the center of our relationships. He wants to be the One who brings two people together. Not our feelings, not our mutual love for each other but our mutual love for Christ.
I wish men and women of God would know this in their hearts. Not only God wants to be involved, He wants to be in control. When our relationships bring us closer to God, it will bring us closer to each other (in a healthy, heavenly way). Be patient, wait upon The Lord..
Do not let your feelings get in the way.. I’m not saying that when you get into a relationship, you have to be cold and emotionless, but remember that you have to guard your feelings.. Ask God for wisdom. Ask God to check your heart daily. Are you in this relationship just because of your feelings? Or Are you in this relationship because you know in your heart that God wants to use you and your partner for His glory, for doing something big in His Kingdom together? I have so much to say about this.. I am gonna share more in my upcoming blogs! Girls, I love you and we’re on this journey together <3